《不吉利的梦》
只剩70天...
绝望, 气馁... 怎么能接受得到
根本没可能像亚也那么坚强
我做不到
朋友的约会
开始觉得很烦
不可能赴约
因为不想... 还会有心情吗?...
害怕... 亚也当时也是这样的心情?
她到底是怎么熬过来的
我没第一时间告诉父母
最后还是觉得不该瞒这他们
还活不到半辈子
剩下的... 都在医院里过...
我还有什么能力??
我还能做什么??
我还有什么选择??
想做的东西有什么?
其实一样都想不起来... ... ...
PS1: This afternoon my result is out. I did badly in my exam. I am open minded. But I am still human. Disappointed? Blame myself. Try harder!!
PS2: Unfortunate dream does tell us something, isn't it?
Monday, August 22, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Let this be the First.
Thursday, 11 August 2011, 21:50
I bought the first novel in my life, out of my own will.
Will I read it? I hope I do.
But it's amazing that,
it's attractiveness made me spend money for it.
I should find myself enjoy reading it.
Perhaps 'enjoy reading' are not the right words to use.
'Get a feel of it' instead.
Will I read it? I hope I do.
But it's amazing that,
it's attractiveness made me spend money for it.
I should find myself enjoy reading it.
Perhaps 'enjoy reading' are not the right words to use.
'Get a feel of it' instead.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
宪のDREAMLAND 【10】
It's been a long while since the last time I had such ROJAK dream.
1. I went to canteen with friends to order drink, and the people at the counter require me to fill up forms and write down the address for the 'milo panas' I ordered. Watdaheck is this...
2. I have so many classmates from different countries. And the class teacher seems to be someone like 'Sue Sylvester', every one were given an assignment, a song to sing, and I got an odd one. =.="
3. Two classmates spoke to me in Japanese, I stunned, don't know how to reply them back. LOL. They thought I can speak too, coz I was simply playing fun with friend with some simple single word.
How Rojak had my dream become?
Sun-U. Housemates. Eat. Glee. KTV. Namida. Sawajiri Erika. LADY. Kitagawa Keiko.
1. I went to canteen with friends to order drink, and the people at the counter require me to fill up forms and write down the address for the 'milo panas' I ordered. Watdaheck is this...
2. I have so many classmates from different countries. And the class teacher seems to be someone like 'Sue Sylvester', every one were given an assignment, a song to sing, and I got an odd one. =.="
3. Two classmates spoke to me in Japanese, I stunned, don't know how to reply them back. LOL. They thought I can speak too, coz I was simply playing fun with friend with some simple single word.
How Rojak had my dream become?
Sun-U. Housemates. Eat. Glee. KTV. Namida. Sawajiri Erika. LADY. Kitagawa Keiko.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
1 Litre no Namida
Progress test on this coming Tuesday and Wednesday. Didn't put myself into stress like last time. Instead, I started to play a little Facebook version of MapleStory Adventures and finished a awesome, memorable, fascinating drama. Really old drama, should had watched it long time ago, I know... but I just need to look for the right mood for it, so that I can really enjoy myself while watching it. It is based on a true story, sad ending but she is amazing person. If she is alive till now, she would be at around the age of 30.
Ikeuchi Aya (name in the TV series), Kitou Aya (should be the real name) suffer from a terminal illness, Spinocerebellar Atrophy (脊髓小脑变性症). An ordinary girl at the age of 15 starts to lose the ability to run, then walk, write, and eat. But the illness did not affect her intelligence. She had sacrificed a lot, her first love, her high school friends, her activities in high school, bastketball, her happy moments with family, her time with dad mom sister brother and younger sister, her marriage, her future... In exchange she got a life on wheel chair and then onto the bed, tears, lots of tears... But at the least she still got the love from her family which gave her courage to live, and writing diaries.
I bet no one would have said that the story is not touching unless that person is cold blooded. The heroin did a great performance in telling the thinking of real Aya. She did a great job for real Aya. Looking at how she resist to the truth and then accept it so open minded after that, how the illness had affected her life little by little, how she had to make up difficult choices and reluctantly sacrifices each time the illness worsen, how her family took care of her when she is in difficulties. These had really touched me, deep down to my heart. Tears in my eyes? Man, I never know a human can be this strong although after all the suffers she had. That's why I said she is amazing.
Do watch the show if you feel like contributing some tears to the '1 liter'. =) Even though I am pretty sure that since 2005 till now, the tears from audience who watch this show and the readers of her diary already more than that. Anyway, the '1 liter of tears' is describing how much she had cried before she was able to smile and be cheerful again knowing she don't have much time left.
The real Aya.
Ikeuchi Aya (name in the TV series), Kitou Aya (should be the real name) suffer from a terminal illness, Spinocerebellar Atrophy (脊髓小脑变性症). An ordinary girl at the age of 15 starts to lose the ability to run, then walk, write, and eat. But the illness did not affect her intelligence. She had sacrificed a lot, her first love, her high school friends, her activities in high school, bastketball, her happy moments with family, her time with dad mom sister brother and younger sister, her marriage, her future... In exchange she got a life on wheel chair and then onto the bed, tears, lots of tears... But at the least she still got the love from her family which gave her courage to live, and writing diaries.
I bet no one would have said that the story is not touching unless that person is cold blooded. The heroin did a great performance in telling the thinking of real Aya. She did a great job for real Aya. Looking at how she resist to the truth and then accept it so open minded after that, how the illness had affected her life little by little, how she had to make up difficult choices and reluctantly sacrifices each time the illness worsen, how her family took care of her when she is in difficulties. These had really touched me, deep down to my heart. Tears in my eyes? Man, I never know a human can be this strong although after all the suffers she had. That's why I said she is amazing.
Do watch the show if you feel like contributing some tears to the '1 liter'. =) Even though I am pretty sure that since 2005 till now, the tears from audience who watch this show and the readers of her diary already more than that. Anyway, the '1 liter of tears' is describing how much she had cried before she was able to smile and be cheerful again knowing she don't have much time left.
The real Aya.
PS: updated the music player.
Somehow the songs make the atmosphere here a bit down.
Every time when I finished a Japanese drama, I wanted to visit Japan so badly.
As for now, I am still 'stuck' in the drama. Kinda moody. =S
Message from Aya:
Don't give up. Try your best to do what you are capable to. Appreciate.
Somehow the songs make the atmosphere here a bit down.
Every time when I finished a Japanese drama, I wanted to visit Japan so badly.
As for now, I am still 'stuck' in the drama. Kinda moody. =S
Message from Aya:
Don't give up. Try your best to do what you are capable to. Appreciate.
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