Friday, September 28, 2012

宪のDREAMLAND 【17】

I saw her in the car at the opposite lane, and she saw me too.
Both of us quickly requested to stop the car,
and we met each other at the street
We hugged,
I do not know how to express myself,
but just asking to hug longer.
She look up to me,
smiling and I look right into her eyes,
she is so beautiful.

She knows what i am about to ask...
"Y all these time you never reply my messages, are you avoiding me?"
"There is nothing to worry about, don't think too much..."



“只有在梦里才会有那勇气, 拥抱她在街上... ...


... ...”

Bedtime before 7:19am, 28 September 2012

Monday, June 11, 2012

宪のDREAMLAND 【16】

I was on a roller blade, reached a coffee shop. I saw a 'blind' girl, standing near the door, seems like she is waiting for someone.

I settle down at a table with bags and stuffs: camera, laptops, shoes and etc. Just for a very quick moments I left my table for few seconds, all my belongings gone, everything! My most precious assets...

Somehow, I manage to caught that guy who was just planning to leave the shop. I negotiated with him and manage to recover back my losses. All the people in the shop were boo-ing at him.



Lost and found. I will be having my P7 exam today. We will see the 'answer' for this dream when my result is released.

Trigger: Unknown.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

宪のDREAMLAND 【15】

I was on a secret mission, sent as a spy in a university to retrieve confidential information. My track was uncovered by the enemies, escape is my only way.

I never feel so excited when escaping from enemies. I never enjoy this feeling so much before, no human will like this feeling as much as I do. I am able to run fast, I am able to climb over any obstacles swiftly, I am able to teleport, and I have to combat ability to deal with every time the enemies catch up. There might be dead ends, but they are still not the end for me, because I can still see many paths for escaping.

I ran teleport through the crowded corridor without being caught. I rushed up the stairs and fast enough to reach the exit before the enemy can touch me. I enter into a short combat and move swiftly for another escape path whenever I ran to a dead ends. I breakout from a window and escaped to the roof before the enemies realized. I did not disguise into civilians because I really enjoy escaping. It could be an easy escape with a disguise.

I can run freely. I can move very fast. I can disguise into the person around you. I can go anywhere I want. The night is my territory, I am the Nightcrawler.




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Trigger 1:
Born of a liaison between a disguised Mystique and the demon Azazel, Kurt Wagner was raised in a gypsy circus before being rescued from a homicidal mob by Professor Xavier. His powers of teleportation, climbing, and camouflage make him a superior spy, and his hand-to-hand combat skills are enhanced by the strength of his prehensile tail. - recruited new hero in Facebook: Marvel Avenger Alliance

Trigger 2:
- Watched how Minato fight in game on youtube.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

宪のDREAMLAND 【14】

People often says when you think of someone or something and obsess your thoughts with it most of the time during the day, you will dream about it when you are asleep in the night. If this is true, I might not even realize I am thinking about her when I do, or subconscious mind do really exist for everyone of us?

She is leaving me alone again, perhaps I am still being ignored. 

When I heard of this, I am glad that I have the courage to decide to find her wherever she is going. Ticket and luggage all ready. And I actually met her in the airport on the same day we leaving country, going for the same flight, perhaps only in the dream that destiny exist for me. She cried and we hugged.

I woke up in the morning, and listen to these ...




Tuesday, March 27, 2012

宪のDREAMLAND 【13】

I dream of her again. I saw her in the same workplace with me. I saw her drawing using PC. She was still very good in that. I approach her, but the way I started the conversation... (dude, it shouldn't be that way) ! I am glad that she is not resisting me. I only got courage to hug her in the dream.



I realize that recently, she had back to Msia. But I had really no idea on how to bring myself to her. I can feel like I am being avoided/hated/ignored. Alarm woke me up before I could find this out in the dream.



A friend of mine asked me,

"what is the saddest thing that could possibly happen after you confess to a girl?"
"it's when the girl turn around and tell you, don't come for me, go find a better girl "


I told him,
"that's is a bad situation, but..."

"if I really love her...perhaps that couldn't be the worst situation yet..."

"the worst situation is that the girl is resisting from you, ignoring you, and you are not able to get any updates from her at all"

"If she don't accept me, that's fine, but I beg please don't left me out"


I have not even got the chance to confess. But I blame myself for my stupidness. Because I am stupid, I had missed out the opportunities.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Bokkeh Arts

Stress.

A friend of mine asked me about stress before. I tell him, I don't really have stress in my life, so I am not really sure about how stress feel like. Today, I had felt the stress and pressure for myself. It was shocking, scary and worrying... It make me lost my appetite to eat dinner...

I don't blame anyone but I just feel ashamed that I am so weak. My supervisor is going to out of town for a week. Have I not make myself ready for this? The moment she passed on her things to me, the moment I were have to takeover some of the responsibilities. So sudden that I feel I have a lot of burdens, I have lots and lots... tonned of work I need to do... I am so worried that I couldn't handle all of those things... I wished badly I can stayed there till late to do whatever I can to catch up the work but I gotta go for class... wanted to cry it out but I manage to hold it to myself. Lost my appetite to eat, lost my mood to go class, spammed quite some emo post in facebook in less than 5 minutes, I went to class for less than 1 hour and I left to go home. Sorry for giving a bad impression to Mr Goh, my lecturer.

I am feeling much calm after I reach home. Now that I realize my responsibilities wasn't even that heavy compare to my manager. Somehow, I feel I should take this good opportunity to train myself, also to proof myself to my upperhand that I can still handle the stress. I need courage, I need motivation, I need to be stronger, I need to grow up!

Felt much better after I had a small talk with room mate, appreciate it very much, thanks!

That 'dark' moment I had just now, so many thoughts had passed through my mind. Perhaps I was just tired. I am now back home at 8.46pm. I am gonna sleep early and take a good rest tonight. Don't want to let my manager down. Tomorrow gonna fight, fight, FIGHT!!!

Wish me luck! I can do this!

Monday, February 6, 2012

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Monday, January 2, 2012

Might be useful for my future hunting with '3rd eye' ...

5 Tips for Street Photography Beginners
by Kai

At one point in my photography life I only did landscapes. At one point, I was happily content with trekking through fields, stepping in cow pats, making my way up a bloody big hill in order to get one elusive shot. It was incredibly therapeutic: it was mainly about enjoying the journey and, when you arrive, soaking up the environment in your own time and thinking about the shot; the light, the filters you’ll use and taking your time to get composition so that the trees all line up with however those photography books told you it would look good like.

The buzz you get from shooting street photography is completely different: there’s no time to stand there to soak up the fresh air (well, the air isn’t that fresh anyway) and contemplate your shot nor is there a planned journey to get your shot. Street shooting is rewarding because you don’t know what you’re going to get until you see it, it’s like a photographic box of chocolates (well, at least that’s probably what Forrest Gump would say). But there’s a whole lot more than just seeing something, because you have to capture it too. Knowing when to press the button and seeing the shot at the end is a great feeling. Henri Cartier Bresson was a complete genius, not just for being such a talented artist, but also for summing up street photography with two words: “decisive moment.”


Sometimes capturing the “decisive moment” is about as easy as catching the dreaded Swine Flu. Certainly, your hit rate of catching something will increase when you hang around heavily-populated areas. There are other hurdles (apart from Swine Flu) that get thrown in your way that will hinder your progress like Sonic the Hedgehog hitting a brick wall head-first. You’re mainly shooting people and your success depends on whether they will comply with your intentions. When I say “comply” I mean “don’t give a sh*t” or “don’t know” about you taking the shot. Street Photography is about capturing a slice of street life and that doesn’t necessarily mean the subject has to turn to you and say “I do”.

So, how can you make getting that shot easier? Here are 5 things that I tend to do when out shooting on the streets.

1. Don’t look like you’re a convicted sex criminal
Sounds silly, but think about what kind of person you would trust coming up to you and taking a photo of you.

2. Settings
Either don’t bother setting the camera settings at all and snap away or think about it before you get into the zone. You don’t want to faff about when that shot is about to be made because you’re just making things harder for yourself. If you’re just starting out then you might want to try putting it on P mode to begin with and just concentrate on shooting. Don’t give a crap what some trolls on the internet say about P mode not being “pro”, that’s utter tripe.




To be honest, I use Aperture-Priority mode quite often when doing street stuff. Then I team that up with choosing spot-metering, which is something that I’ve gotten used to when shooting Leicas, and lock the metering and focus on the subject (centre point) and then recompose. But, of course, you can choose the metering that suits your style more.

Shooting with a Leica M on the street is a slightly different process but if you’re using a DSLR then the point is essentially the same: have those settings ready before hand so you don’t have to think so much about the settings when you are busy taking that shot.

3. Get into the zone

I think that there’s nothing more threatening than someone shooting with a long lens from afar. Snipers are scary, a man with a handgun less so. At least with close quarters stuff - from the point of view of the person on the receiving end - they are within punching distance of you.

Treat your subject like a stray cat (no need to stroke their head): approach slowly or else they’ll notice you and think you’re a convicted sex criminal, and then make your intentions clear without forcing it in their face. Usually when you are this close you will know whether they want their shot taken or not, whether they are comfortable with you around with a camera, or simply think that you look like a deviant.

4. Judge your subjects

Alright, so there’s all that hoo-haa about teaching you how not to judge a book by its cover (which was probably first said by an ugly person), but in this case you should. Once you’ve studied some human behaviour you can kinda tell how they are going to react when they have their photo taken or just a camera pointed their way. If they look like they don’t want their photo taken then you don’t force it or you ask politely. Then thing is, once you’ve asked them, the shot usually doesn’t have that mood in there anymore because they will probably pose for you. Even if you have taken the shot and they show their discontent (which is a nice way of saying “pissed off”) about having their photo taken then you just give in and stop it.

5. Watch and predict what they are going to do
When you are at a location, there won’t always be something happening for you to just waltz on in and casually take your photo. Spend a bit of time not just to look whether they look like they will cave your head in for taking their photo but also get a feel of what kind of person they are, what they are doing on the street, where are they going, what action are they going to do next. It makes the photo much more interesting if you at least have a bit of empathy for your subject.

The thing with street photography is that you won't always have stuff to shoot. It doesn't matter that you're not creating Henri Cartier-Bresson street shots to begin with - as the master himself says "your first 10,000 shots are your worst" - what matters is that you get out there and spend lots of time shooting. Of course there will be some shots that are complete rubbish, but you'll also get your keepers too. What matters most is that by shooting more you will get more practice, and the more practice you get the more comfortable you will feel with your camera and the situation, which will mean that you only need to think just a little bit about the shot rather than fumbling around with your camera and getting scared or scaring off your subject.

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Kai presenter of DigitalRev TV, is passionate about photography and collecting camera equipment that he never uses but caresses gently in his spare time. He has a tendency to talk about his love for Nikon & Leica equipment as well as speaking his mind in a rather forthright manner.

Happy New Year 2012.

2011, I failed, I learned [tried hard(at least tried)], I try again... how's 2012 will be?

I made a lot more new friends in the 2011, and I believe I will soon have to in contact with more people in coming 2012.

2mr is my first day of work, 3rd January 2012, a full time work. I will be receiving my first monthly salary at the end of this January. Sounds very money minded huh? Who don't want money anyway. The interview in last year December was just like a normal procedure I have to go through before joining the company. The result already expected and most probably I will be hired, and I am hired!

The job scope describe by my manager sounds challenging. No harm for me to try isn't it? To be honest I am quite nervous and worried when she read a long (quite long for me) job description during the interview. I believe 2012 would be another 'turning point' in my life.

"They can do it, so can I" - for Kee Shen in 2012

I got my ideal working days in my mind. I must make it realize for at least 80% or 90%. I want to wake up early for breakfast everyday then head for work. I want to finish my job as soon as possible so that I can head for gym after that. After working out I shall have my dinner before I am back home. Reach home, rest a little catching up on the website and sleep early. Weekend will most probably occupied for classes and studies.


I still missing you. It's been so long. Had you really forgotten me? I still remember you! I still remember... our first and last conversation in the phone till now... house 9 room E, bus on the way to LHR... the first date in my life... though is not like a date for couples but I still remember it... I will be very happy even just to hear a word from you after a year and 5 months.

How are you doing? =)